Prostate Cancer SUCKS

TV as memorable moments in life There are a few times as a boomer that stick in your memory.  Most of them have to do with television shows.  In no particular order -  MASH.  There are a few of these, but the most rememberable are Henry Blake's plane going down and the final episode when the war is over. Bob Newhart Show.  The final episode when Bob wakes from a dream about being a New England inn keeper and Suzzanne Pleshette is in bed with him (throwback to the original Bob Newhart show). OJ slow chase.  This one was one of the first failing sports idol happening in real time on TV. Challenger disaster.  Major space disaster live on TV. 9/11 is still difficult to watch know what happened. My final is the entire series of Ted Lasso.  There are far too many scenes, but the MOST memorable is the scene in the pub when Ted is playing darts and Ted quotes Walt Whitman on the show.- "be curious, not judgmental". To me, this means you cannot pass judgme...

 One thing I have learned... A cancer diagnosis changes you whether you admit it or not.  How can you not feel intimidated by those words that so often mean a death sentence.  For some with prostate cancer that is found later than others, that is exactly what it is.  I am extremely lucky that it was found early enough and removed with clean boarders.  It will still weigh heavily on my existence and those in my family and life.  As I have stated before, I do not feel that there is anyone that has not been touched by a friend, family or themselves touched by the horror of cancer.  I count myself rather fortunate that it did not impact me too much until my mother's diagnosis and then my own later in life.  My father had a bought with colon cancer, but like me, they could remove the section and thus remove the issue.  Kinda remote, but not all that impactful since he was ok even years since his surgery. Now it is my turn and yes it was cut out, b...

 A Whole New World! So as I type, it has been 37 months of a sexless life.  I decided to change that with the new year.  I made the decision with my wife that I would get a penile implant. Surgery As I prepared for the surgery, I did a lot of research including some YouTube videos.  If you are considering this, please don't look at them.  The surgery in the videos is gruesome to someone not in the medical field.  To the doctors, it is completely normal.  I still was not deterred.  What are my options?  Stay completely soft for ever OR have the ability to get hard and stay hard for as long as I want!  That was the outcome I was looking for. Of course, as a guy, the size and measurements were important, but again what are the options?  With the cancer removal there is a loss.  Then with an implant there MAY be a loss.  For me, there was a loss on both surgeries. But I can now get hard without drugs!!  To me that is the ...

 My next move... I am quickly closing in on 3 years since my official diagnosis, just over 3 weeks away when I got my birthday present...you have cancer of the prostate.  Little did I/we know how much those words can up end your life.  A life that took, literally, a lifetime to achieve.  Wow, who could have imagined this is the way it would end up? There have been so many doctors, appointments, therapists, and others.  Too many to count!  But, I have come to the epiphany that it is time for a change.  I know, in the past, I stated - "never again, no more surgeries!"  I have had a change of heart on that idea. The past three years has also been filled with ideas, tips, tricks, etc. that have helped others, but did nothing for me.  The only thing that I kept doing, in hopes that the ED would disappear, was the daily pumping routine.  I have kept blood flow and tissue flushed to stop any further loss of size or tissue.  I have maintain...