New Chapter

 My next move...

I am quickly closing in on 3 years since my official diagnosis, just over 3 weeks away when I got my birthday present...you have cancer of the prostate.  Little did I/we know how much those words can up end your life.  A life that took, literally, a lifetime to achieve.  Wow, who could have imagined this is the way it would end up?

There have been so many doctors, appointments, therapists, and others.  Too many to count!  But, I have come to the epiphany that it is time for a change.  I know, in the past, I stated - "never again, no more surgeries!"  I have had a change of heart on that idea.

The past three years has also been filled with ideas, tips, tricks, etc. that have helped others, but did nothing for me.  The only thing that I kept doing, in hopes that the ED would disappear, was the daily pumping routine.  I have kept blood flow and tissue flushed to stop any further loss of size or tissue.  I have maintained everything I had and maybe some since the surgery.

I am hoping that will pay off when I make my move.  My move?  I am going for an implant.

I have lost my function due to cancer.  Nobody questions when a woman gets an implant for a mastectomy, why should prostate cancer be any different?  I am hoping I can recover some of the magic we once had.  It should bring back spontaneity and freedom.  Move away from pills and needles and jump to a small saline pump that tacks seconds to gain functionality.

Now for the hard part - finding a doctor that has experience to have a successful outcome!  More to follow...

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