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TV as memorable moments in life

There are a few times as a boomer that stick in your memory.  Most of them have to do with television shows.  In no particular order - 

  • MASH.  There are a few of these, but the most rememberable are Henry Blake's plane going down and the final episode when the war is over.
  • Bob Newhart Show.  The final episode when Bob wakes from a dream about being a New England inn keeper and Suzzanne Pleshette is in bed with him (throwback to the original Bob Newhart show).
  • OJ slow chase.  This one was one of the first failing sports idol happening in real time on TV.
  • Challenger disaster.  Major space disaster live on TV.
  • 9/11 is still difficult to watch know what happened.
My final is the entire series of Ted Lasso.  There are far too many scenes, but the MOST memorable is the scene in the pub when Ted is playing darts and Ted quotes Walt Whitman on the show.- "be curious, not judgmental". To me, this means you cannot pass judgment on anyone, because we are all different.  I have learned this even more during the last 4 years.



I have been on the roller coaster of life.  Pre-cancer was flying high and thinking I had and knew it all.  Cancer grounded my flight and brought me to the ground hard.  I was mortal and now had cancer in my body.  That was never going to happen to me, but here I was being smacked in the face with that very scary outlook.  Brought me right back to a lifetime low.

Surgery removed all the cancer and the lab showed clean margins on the prostate under biopsy.  Back to the high times of life.  I had no more cancer in my body!

I was brought back down by the slow reality that there was some damage to nerves that was healing or recovery.  I spent 3 years in male hell.  I could still orgasm, but nothing of any use that could be considered useful for penetrative sex.  If you have read the remainder of this blog, I tried EVERYTHING under the sun to return to a normal life.  I tried to redefine my meaning of sex, but nothing replaced the loss I felt.

I then decided to implant.  It is known to those that have one as a Bionic Dick and the Bionic Brotherhood.  I don't partake in those names, but rather being happy in life again!

All of that to find special meaning in the Ted Lasso line - be curious, not judgmental.  I had to find someone to be curious and felt everyone judged.  Nobody ever inquired why I was not happy.  My news of clean margins is a clear sign all is good again.  Nobody asked why still so cranky?

Mental Health is critical and personal until someone asks.  Share and unload the burden.  It is helpful.  I had attended many support groups after my surgery.  You can share your status, but nobody will actively ask how you are.  You need to be questioned, not judged.  When that happens, it is enlightening.  You can unburden yourself.  

This happened to me recently.  A group called Recovering Man was curious.  I was asked about the implant process.  I spoke and and there were questions - no judgement.  It felt great to talk about myself and my journey.  It was freeing!  It had an impact to the owner of the group who asked if I would mind if he put it on his site and blog.  I agreed and now published at https://recoveringman.net/sex-with-penile-implant/.

I feel the past four years has indeed changed my life.  I am told by my wife that she has seen the growth change as well.  The past four years really showed me what an ass I had been for so many years.  I apologized to my wife and myself.  If there is anyone else, I am truly sorry.  I will do better!

Remember - be curious, not judgmental.  


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