For all the spouses...

 For all the spouses out there

There is a new song out there that hit me hard when I listened closely. 

 


If you can't listen, here are the lyrics.


I've seen love come and I've seen love walk away
So many questions, will anybody stay?
It's been a hard year, so many nights in tears
All of the darkness, tryin' to fight my fears
Alone
So long alone
I don't know who I'd be if I didn't know You
I'd probably fall off the edge
I don't know where I'd go if You ever let go
So keep me held in Your hands
I've started breathing, the weight is lifted here
With you it's easy, my head is finally clear
There's nothin' missing when You are by my side
I took the long road, but now I realize
I'm home
With You, I'm home
I don't know who I'd be if I didn't know You
I'd probably fall off the edge
I don't know where I'd go if You ever let go
So keep me held in Your hands
I don't know who I'd be if I didn't know You
I'd probably fall off the edge
I don't know where I'd go if You ever let go
So keep me held in Your hands
You're my safe place, my hideaway
You're my anchor, my saving grace
You're my constant, my steadiness
You're my shelter, my oxygen
I don't know who I'd be if I didn't know You
Thank God I do
I don't know who I'd be if I didn't know You
I'd probably fall off the edge
I don't know where I'd go if You ever let go
So keep me held in Your hands
I don't know who I'd be if I didn't know You
Thank God I do

I realize this is more religious, but the song took me to my rock - my wife.

I know personally, my wife has been my rock as I navigate the emotional roller coaster that cancer introduces.  Stack on that the loss of any type of performance in the bed and loss of dignity by having to inject drugs into your penis for anything!  Nothing you would wish on any red blooded man.

Thank you to my rock.

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