The hard part (well not yet)
Well it is the holiday season and the New Year is right around the corner. With the extra time, there is an opportunity to focus on more healing. As I write this, I confess that I am not overly religous. I did grow up in the Lutheran Comunity, traveled with the Pastor of the church. Our families covered so many states and provinces in Canada (fond childhood memories). I did raise my children as Lutheran as well. Then as a parent and adult, I began to see the money flowing through the church and learned of the budget process. That opened my eyes that is nothing but a business with financial goals and as a perisioner, we funded it. It turned from giving for good to giving money to make the budget. The elders of the church started judging families according to their ability to make the budget. I said enough and walked away! Sorry Pastor (from my childhood) to disappoint you like that.
All of that to lead up to current day. As I was attending my acupuncture appointment, the acupuncturist and I talked. There is no secret here, that I have grown impatient with the complete healing process. That is the hard part of all this, but wait a minute - it is not yet there. The acupuncturist told me that in the Chinese practice, it is believed that all things happen for a reason. All of this, in Chinese medicine, happened to me to teach me something. I do have to say, I wish there was an easier way to learn this lesson. She told me that perhaps all of this was to teach me to have more patience. To learn to accept what I have and do the best you can. End of the day, enjoy life! After the conversation, she inserted the needles and I began to feel things in places that have been asleep for the past 8 months! If you are in this boat, I reccomend trying acupuncture. It does change your outlook and puts things back in line for your body. It also assists with nerve healing (pudundent nerve) to speed the process to get back to normal.
After the appointment, later in the week, I was listening to my favorite singer/songwriter of all time, Marc Cohn. Marc released his first album in 1991. That same year my boys were born. They grew up on Marc Cohn as well. On that album, there is a song called Miles Away (give it a listen). As I listend, the lyrics hit home based on my acupuncture appointment -
Wow! That song that I have been enjoying for the past 30 years now has a new meaning. There is some deeper meaning, but I do not know what it is. I just have to accept it and move on.
Then it goes even further - our traditional family Christmas Eve dinner is take out Chinese. This tradition goes back to my childhood when the family would return to Grandparent's house on Christmas Eve. There was nothing open in the evening except the take out Chinese place. The tradition has stuck now for the past 45 years. Each year we find a take out and enjoy! That includes this year.
Even with all the homebaked cookies, I grabbed the fortune cookie to complete the traditional meal. Cracked open the cookie and read the small paper to see my fortune. There were many packages in the box and I grabbed only one. I was shocked to read -
This is not at all new to me. All the help out there is telling you the same thing. Do not dwell on what you can't do sexually in your relationship, but what you can and do have to satisfy each other. Even though I have heard all of this before in many pieces and parts, the universe aligned to send me all of these messages in one week. Even if you are not religous, these are signals from somewhere. The stars aligned in this magical season and gave me a sign - three different ways. Can it all just be coincedence? What do you think?
