Inevitable or cancer related
As I sit here, I have to wonder. Is this the way it was supposed to be? Am I fighting a losing battle? I am not focusing strictly on the prostate cancer and the result of the prostetectomy. That one is clear. What I don't know is what my life would be like if all was normal? Looking at our life together, it seems to be almost picture perfect. We had time, we had resources, we seemed to have it all together. Fast forward to now, my wife is busy teaching and her business and I am also busy with all the things I need to do. Seeing life in the present and wondering if there was no cancer, would it be as rosey as I am imagining or would I be feeling the same that there is something missing? Again, here comes that woulda, coulda, shoulda a$$hole in my head. Am I painting a picture that is a mural of what we had with what I want us to have now? Would the present be any different without prostate cancer? Am I chasing a ghost or h...